Being told to get a job... Unfortunately, it's being done in a way that makes me not wanting to. Regardless of needing money, I couldn't give two farts about it; that's how stubborn I am. I'm starting to become reluctant again, and like last time I'm not liking it. Not one bit. Realistically, I'm not very much of anything. I've finally coming to terms about "being broken" (raised with fear of making even tiny mistakes, because my parents praised us for good grades in school and scolded us for making bad grades) and honestly, it's destroying me. But! games like "Wolfenstein the New Order/Old Blood" keep me motivated enough to get some things done. Because, it's a story about a man who dreams for what we have (a family and a reason to live for), but is stuck fighting a war he's in until it's done. There are literal parts and bits where he monologues about his days before WW-II, like in The Old Blood he has a inner monologue about earning his first dollar and spending it on rock candy. In The New Order he has dreams of living a peaceful life with a family, saying that "when he wakes up, it's gone".
But, all-in-all sometimes there are reasons why I want to do something; then it's immediately shot down with someone saying something in a negative way. I've been doodling away, but not really anything post worthy (because they're just doodles). So... Yeah. Hope everyone is doing well and doing what they want (not robbing banks).
for being negative. Anything positive towards me get smooshed, so I'm just stuck with that for now.